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Blogger really sucks. The interface has been lousy. And then now it's screwed up. Right now, here, I'm seeing like the input box for HTML, only for HTML, not the rich text type, and without the picture uploading tool, bold tool and stuff. For past two weeks it has been this small tiny box no more than 5 lines and 5 words (as dimensions), and now it's like 10 inches over the screen and well, at least the height of the box is back to normal. Is this what they call by the Google experience. Because I certainly hope not.
Anyway I have increasingly less time to blog, so no love lost. Every Wednesday from now onwards is my free day in the week, my only day with nothing on after that, and Dr. Siva did ask me to choose a day for one-to-one consultation, time which I feel could be better channeled to individual revision (but I still treasure the good intentions, but I declined very politely and I'm not letting anyone, anyone touch my precious Wednesdays (w.r.t. teachers).
Today's council session led me into a pensive mood for a short while. By referring to the dates and line-up of events, I see that nearly every fortnight there's a great council activity that I would have gone to and did go to last year, and on 7 December, for a mere 70-80 dollars (I can't remember), I get to dress up for Prom and camwhore for a whole night as well as eat a sumptious 8 course meal that probably includes peanuts as one of the course. Exciting prospects indeed, but at the same time it reminds me how fast time will fly, how fast it is flying now, as I type and my classmates are chiong-ing their revision.
Class montage is being done by Wei Sheng. It's quite surprising to how we can summarise the best 2 years of our school days into like. 3 minutes. But taking into consideration that we cannot put in all the incriminating photos (and videos) of co-ordinated wrestling and swearing, I suppose we will get over that high mountain and wide river.
Hmmm. I seem to have less and less to say here. I wanna talk about my opinion towards certain happenings in class, but the sensitive nature of the issues at hand as well as the high emotional maturity that I'm TRYING to exhibit prevents me from doing so. I don't think I'm gonna blog much from now on, so you'll probably spend more productive time on http://twitter.com/jieandyang checking out whether I'm still alive and stuff.
And yes, I do tweet. And I can predict that Council will start tweeting soon. A council twitter to engage the student population using 140 characters and updating them about the going-ons of Council. Sounds like something they'll write as a profile eh? Mark my words man.
Now that all this stress is heaped on me, all I wanna say is:
- This sucks.
- This really really sucks.
I have I&I to complete, H3 tutorial + graph, H2 Biology's application tutorial, figure out sampling's unbiased estimates, read up on economics and concretise trade creation and diversion, go through transition metals' notes, oh god, I think I want to go back to pre-blocks. My results ain't that bad, but nothing to be proud of too. Oh man. I just wanna stay at home, stop time, mug, mug, mug, mug till I'm confident, unfreeze time then continue life as per normal. I'm really sorry if I'm being irritating or anything in class. it's really just me being tired and cranky.
I am erm stressed.
I really think I'm disaster/mishap bound this year. You may have thought that the dear broken foot was the end of my mishaps. You were wrong! My fourth toe is now swollen like a cute little Wang Wang Xiao Man Tou, except for the fact that it is inedible, and with an itch that cannot be satiated. And this is kind of inappropriately timed taking into fact that tomorrow is
the first PE lesson! and my
first gym session! since blocks took over my life.
And so... I think this week is going to be crucial. Without announcing to the world, it is like nearly certain that every J2 is resolved to study from this week on. With a mere 7 weeks to go, the past month seems puny in comparison to the effort and discipline needed to pound down the future. I realised very slowly that there's no such thing as a closet mugger, only a friend that does not want to stress you. And similarly, there's no such thing as an open mugger, just a schoolmate who wants motivate you. I draw my daily motivation seeing everyone listening more attentively in class, mugging after school, getting sad over their results and proclaiming their new will to mug. And I am inspired (rather coerced too) to do more for my academics too.
Putting that into mind would mean that there are now 2 constant sources of
motivation and determination to draw upon from. Who can say that their blocks results are not one of these sources. I avow upon it. My results stink for the very fact that I haven't given it all for this round. And there's no excuse for not giving it my all. I am not disappointed in my Math, it's fine. I just wish my time management didn't screw up at crucial periods of anxiety. In fact, it has given me more confidence in my ability to solve; now's just to brush up on SPEED. Same for chemistry. No more careless. No more going into exams with unclear concepts. It's wrong and I don't see why I should continue.
And if you just read this and you're thinking, hey man shit I'm like this loser too, then... go take a break. Pump yourself with ice cream or some comfort food, then go and start studying. I'm having a terrible time readjusting to absorbing new input and regurgitating everyday too, so I hope anyone out there would feel better knowing that you're not alone somehow.
(How emotionally mature and encouraging of me right. I know. My testimonial says that.)

I look like some old geezer. Knuckle me in the face please.
Everybody's getting back their papers, I got my Chem Paper 1 and 3 back too. Did much better than I expected, I must say. But today was just... not very exciting. My econs teacher said stuff like over-confidence in sheer brilliance or some shit, obviously targeting Darrell or me. I don't know and I don't care. One and half a frigging shit years of teaching me and he still thinks Jie Yang and Jia Ying are the same names. I think it's like pushing the limits of respect for teacher. I still remember what Miss Yeo said to me last year so I don't think I'm gonna elaborate here anymore.
Anyway, today Randy peed on his hands and his pants and now he ain't got no friends.

Yeah. Him.
I think I'm growing more and more distant in terms of thought frequency from everyone. It's like. I'm looking at the same things, but I focus on different aspects, and I feel differently towards stuff. But
not gonna whine about anything today, except for the fact that, well I only realised today that it's 2 months to Prelims.
Still don't know how I'm gonna do it. It seemed like, today my mind just reset itself, like I've taken a long break already and I had better be going again, although I still really really shagged.
But for tonight, I don't think I'm gonna do any work by far. Setting up stupid modem (perhaps wrongly too) kinda screwed up my mood. Maybe I'll come up with fresh ideas and details for a project I'm doing with Victor Gan.
(Howie you should know what I'm talking about!)

Hello blog. Over the last two years you have witnessed my life become more screwed up, my English standard fall, my opinion about issues more conformed, and less content too since I started using Facebook and Twitter updates. I'm very sorry but I think this would continue for quite some time.
Today was supposedly a break; I played squash, I watched a movie, I bought new slippers. But I don't feel relaxed.
Why. You ask why. (Just ask why okay.)
- I was supposed to watch I LOVE YOU MAN! with Wong Jing Xiang. But he succumbed to peer pressure and we all ended up watching The Taking of Pelham 123, a movie recommended by Darrell Mark Leong that apparently I should love. Which I did love if not for the fact that I always figured out the plot one step before it unfolded. And it was a thriller. So yeah. Not relaxing.
- I didn't do well for Paper 1 and 2. Yay. Turned around. Weisheng whispered it was quite easy. Turned back immediately.
- TOMORROW I HAVE ECONS MAKE UP!
- TOMORROW I HAVE H3!
- SATURDAY I HAVE BIO LECTURE!
- SUNDAY I HAVE NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO!
And how am I gonna face all of this? (No, I'm not gonna faint.)
With my bright! optimistic! never-say-die! always-say-can! I-will-get-4As-in-spite-of-the-mother-!$#%ing-odds! attitude, of course.
So if you think your life is shitty, think again! And if you still think your life is shitty, think again!
And if you still think your life is shitty, then... think again!
...
Seriously, desperately, wish for all these negative vibes of unease and mild anxiety to end.
Now.
2 days more to end of blocks! But somehow I'm not excited. Somehow, the thing I anticipated most during the holidays, which is the end of blocks, lost all its draw factor. I just realised that after blocks, school starts immediately (right?) and when school starts, I would have to learn more; learning more leads to more that needs to be crammed into an already working-at-near-full-capacity-for-this-year brain. Which sucks. 2-3 months to prelims, with prelim preparations to start officially on my birthday if time permits, then give it near a month more to A's. And then everything ends, we celebrate the end of our mission in life for 12 years, that is, studying in order to get the best results we can.
And what happens to me after that? I go to army. I don't know why, but during preparation of blocks it just dawned very very brightly on me that while I shave my head (no, not for charity but for the country), swop in my bronze Guess spectacles for a pair of black specs that do not even make me look nerd-cool, and don fatigues, gain brawn and lose brains, all my female friends are going to work (and earn like at least twice more), then head on to Uni in August next year.
Not a very pleasing thought because my goal in life is mainly, narrowed down to getting to the finish line, which is to earn enough money to last me for three lifetimes as well as possess the "stuff that money can't buy", all in the shortest time. And spending (not exactly wasting) two years of the prime of my youth to serve the nation while my female batchmates race in front of me... is not a very pleasing thought at all.
Couple this with the fact that they'll soon become all my ex-friends, and that all my guy friends have half a chance that they'll become more and more distant from me, and it's not too difficult to see why I am not exactly looking forward to the future.
Things I can possibly think of that will brighten up my life is, well, maybe every weekend I can go out? That is if I still have friends to go out with. Oh, and that meagre pay of 400 dollars that establishes that bit of financial independence for sacrificing my blood and sweat to serve the nation, justified by the fact that I have free lodging and food that "may not be gourmet standard but meets the nutritional requirements".
Yeah. I think I've whined about this couple of times not, but each time the feeling of revulsion just surges even more strongly.
Let's toast to this bleak scene of tomorrow.
What can I say. Today... was just another repeat of Biology. I think this Blocks really make me aware of all my stupid habits that only make me lose out. I have this icky habit of persisting and persevering to the end, only to move from a question after I've solved it. Some call it
DETERMINATION! I call it pure mule-headedness now.
This blocks... I think Biology was just one big raping session where Paper 1 gave a nice illusion of an okay paper that set me at ease for Paper 2, something very wrong to do because I just took my time (in a way) to do each question, making sure I answer completely before moving on. Very bad choice. In the end I spent like nearing 50 minutes on two genetic deduction questions. And I have another bad habit of not reading instructions, nor remembering instructions. Result: Did both essay questions. When I only have 15 minutes left. Very clever of me, I must say. But not that I could write more if I only wrote for one question. This is coupled by the fact that my mind just went blank at the finches' question. Middle finger worthy, I conclude for the biology blocks.
Chem was... pretty morale-boosting. That's till Siyu went to tell me all my mistakes... Made me even more guilty for not double checking and not memorising. Talk about memorising; I hate myself for not memorising chunks about Law of CA. Eff to the you to the cee to the kay man.
Math today was just pure stupidity. Spent only 15 minutes on last two pages when I'm damn sure I can get at least 75% of the marks there, compared to just 50% from the previous 2 pages. And I really hate it when teachers talk a lot when the exam hasn't even ended.
And if you think GP went well. Think again. My essay was seemingly going good in my mind because I was just lifting from Bill Joy's commentary (from Issues and Ideas), till Darren Wong pointed out that I left out the part about technology not being able to solve societal problems. That and the fact that I made a logical flaw in defining "too much faith". Wrote it as technology having its bad side, instead of the problems experienced in the technology itself. Should have just done question 3, which is writing about 3 technologies. Which I used as case studies in Q10 instead.
So yeah. All that can be salvaged is Chem. But I really don't feel like studying.
And I'm sick of me whining too. So shall just stop here.
With one last rant that Michael Bay's penchant for close-ups on panties and slow motion bouncing of boobies, together with his inept piecing together of a good plot has led to Transformers having a one star rating.

Okay. Yes. We know your cleavage rocks and white bra straps with floral patterns are the hippiest shit.
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2. are a Biology student
3. haven't been studying.
Here's what to do.
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2. Go mug.
3. Thank me someday for the profound impact this set of instructions had on your life.
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LATEST FROM CHANNEL NEWS ASIA
SINGAPORE: Health Minister Khaw Boon Wan has said schools will re-open and the Asian Youth Games and National Day celebrations will carry on.
But recently-returned students who have travelled to affected countries will stay at home for one week before joining their classmates when schools re-open on Monday.
The Ministry of Education (MOE) will provide more details soon, added Mr Khaw.
The health minister was speaking at a news conference on Monday to give an update on the latest developments on the Influenza A(H1N1)situation.
Mr Khaw said that overall, life must continue as normally as possible with targeted control measures.
One of them would be to close a school when a significant cluster is found so as to break the transmission or to isolate a competing team from other athletes as was done with the Filipino and the Hong Kong football players.
Mr Khaw also revealed that the scientific committee, chaired by the Director of Medical Services, is effectively evaluating the characteristics and the genome of the virus.
The committee has determined that the H1N1 virus in Singapore remains identical with that in North America.
Hence, the consensus view was that the virus remains moderate-risk and Singaporeans need not panic over the development that there is now community spread in the country.
Mr Khaw is confident that almost all infected cases will be able to recover fully and that Tamiflu and Relenza remain effective against the disease.
He, however, added: "But I thought I should explain that moderate risk does not mean no death. Just like the seasonal flu, there will be some deaths. That's why we need to target the high-risk patients, especially those with underlying medical conditions and to render the best chance of a full recovery. And that is why we need to allow our hospitals to be able to focus on the high-risk cases and not be distracted or overwhelmed by hundreds of mild cases."
Among those in the high risk include pregnant mothers, people with asthma, those on kidney dialysis or on chemotherapy.
The Health Ministry intends to advise these groups of patients with direct mailers of what they can do to protect themselves.
On its part, the Health Ministry is also gearing up all its polyclinics and a few hundred general practitioners to treat suspected H1N1 cases in Singapore.
Giving details of measures to tackle a wider community spread of the influenza, Mr Khaw explained that these will be called Pandemic Preparedness Clinics or PPCs and they can be recognised by their decal to handle walk-in suspect cases.
These clinics will only refer some categories of high-risk suspect patients to public hospitals.
Mr Khaw said the Health Ministry would publicise to Singaporeans where these clinics are so they know where to seek advice.
He explained: "When the local bio-surveillance data confirms significant community spread and we need to move from containment to full mitigation, we will signal to the public to use these PPCs instead of going to the hospitals if their flu conditions are mild. And this may happen over the next few days."
The Health Minister also revealed that the government would secure adequate supplies of the H1N1 vaccine for the population.
Besides the existing supply contract with the vaccine manufacturer, Mr Khaw said the ministry is also in active negotiations with other vaccine manufacturers. The aim is to diversify the supply of H1N1 vaccines.
Concluding, Mr Khaw said that last week has been eventful in the development of the outbreak in Singapore and the ministry expects this development.
That's because June would be challenging, given the large number of travellers returning from their holidays.
But the seven-week head start in battling the virus has been extremely useful, Mr Khaw said, to allow the government to gear up its system for the community spread phase of the outbreak.
His advice to Singaporeans: just carry on with your lives normally but keep up the high standard of personal hygiene.
- CNA/ir
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SHERIOUSHLY.
Wah siao ATE A LOT outside today, not only feeling fat but really fat now. My wallet, my body have been corroded and corrupted and I don't want to budge anymore. Let's just hope I can maintain this same feeling at the study table later on and throughout the week.
How prophetic Han Chih can be. When I received her message that day I was like, okay... Really doubt I will fall sick at such a crucial time. But now I'm sick so maybe there's some truth to having a good rest instead of relying on extra shots of espresso. Having sore throat sucks, every time I get a sore throat I abhor myself, because the drink-too-much-water feeling is really irritating.
But somehow D&E is more alluring than the bed. I think I'm turning psychotic.
leo! it's all a plan says:sianleo! it's all a plan says:howleo! it's all a plan says:howleo! it's all a plan says:howleo! it's all a plan says:wad if i screw up block testleo! it's all a plan says:lolblubber!ee sick. says:then you emo la duh[edit @ 1054PM]
Feeling much better now, after tonight I will be Hyper
Bolah, Sunday I must head out of home I swear!
Tomorrow! Can't wait. Gonna sleep early too because
- I skewered my brains on satay sticks of Normal Distribution.
- I am gonna run tomorrow morning.
- I don't want eyebags for tomorrow.
- And simply because tomorrow will be a better day and I must be on my best.
Blubberlee will lose his wait 0.1% at a time. He promises.
[edit @ 20 minutes later]
My favourite blog post in a long while, sent to me by my good friend:
this post is a special one because i'll be talking about the prettiest girls in the school (the j2 cohort) and what i think of them. what i mean by prettiest is that these are the names that pop up most often when guys talk about girls and when i randomly ask people NAME ME THE TOP 3 MOST ATTRACTIVE GIRLS IN SCHOOL. and anyway i think they are quite attractive too.. of course to me some on the list are more attractive than others but this list will be in no particular order cause don't want to hurt people's feelings :( ok i think i'll go by alphabetical order..
siyu - i don't know her in person, but i think she's the most confident girl in school, and i can conclude that simply by observing the way she walks when she goes past the right wing on the way to the canteen. perhaps she has reason to be confident - she has a pretty face, she's slim and tall, and she can dance well (apollo dance i/c leh wtf?!?!) but she comes across as quite dao, not the type of girl you would want to approach if you're afraid of rejection. though i think she's friendly to the people she knows.
chit yin - lots of people think she's one of the hottest girls in school. i agree that she has good looks, but it seems like she carries this negative vibe of unease and mild anxiety a lot of the time. but the good thing is that my impression of her is that she's pretty humble and down-to-earth although she can dance damn well and is very popular.
pris soh - despite the fact that i estimate that at least 30-40 guys in school have a crush on her (though i think most of them don't dare to make a move cause they don't think they stand a chance) and about half of all the guys would agree that she's attractive, she doesn't seem to come across as the type who's caught up in her popularity. so she's similar to chit yin in that she's humble.. which is cool and respectable! it's interesting when attractive people don't think so highly of themselves that they wear an air of arrogance telling people outright that they think that they're superior.
(this was supposed to be in alphabetical order but never mind la)
liping - another dancer.. but don't want to comment la cause she's taken by an indian already.
nicola - she exudes a highly positive vibe and is quite friendly, confident and humorous. plus she's damn pro at touch rug, captain of the championship winning team leh, respect!! and she's damn smart, i don't know about her other results but apparently she got AAAA for her j1 block test (but too bad B for gp wasted la)! despite all these she still comes across as quite humble, again i find that pretty cool. oh and from what i know, she's really sharp, as in socially intelligent, even if she doesn't show it.
ok la that's all for now.. feel free to comment on what you think, then it's more fun! especially people like JUNNIES who will dare to speak their mind. don't be afraid cause i don't think any of them read this blog. and even if they do, it's no big deal la.. no fear!
Tag Yujie's my new favourite blogger!



Went to Serene to study today, has middle range productivity considering that I ran to the other Mcdonald's in Bukit Timah in the morning. Satisfied common craving for hotcakes, and then did some work, then got hungry again, so went to get a double cheese burger. Started D and E, needed caffeine, so had Mochacchino with extra shot. Did Probability, needed sugar rush, had chocolate sundae. Kinda donated to Macs quite a lot but I supposed it was all kinda needed in a way so not much regret (except for the fact that I'm starting to feel fat again).
Was quite happy today though, not gonna share it here.
Two HC girls were bitching about how they don't like people and why and blah blah, much like me and Weisheng at Bukit Batok Macs, but with a bitch tone and 10 times more irrationality. Heard familiar names like Meow's favorite track girl's in the conversation, and got progressively more interested (and distracted), but when I looked back (to check them out) and never did look back again. They were horribly in no position to comment on people's looks, that's for one.
After they left two grown up men, around mid 30s sat down, started talking rather seriously till I heard terms like "stunning" and "tanking" and lots of other DOTA terms. One of them swore rather a lot and I really wanted to tell them they had no lives because I look at them and they don't look like those who are pro enough to make a living of cyber gaming, nor rich enough to live their lives without working, nor sociable enough to make conversations not involving DOTA and cars.
Now I feel rather judgemental but half the time my observations are astute, so I guess... whatever. Anyway I'm probably never gonna meet them again.
I'm still quite happy now. Um chio to the maximum value of infinity.